Please don’t judge. I deserve this and it’s Christmas and I need this for myself (being pregnant and looking haggard most of the time is dragging my confidence and self-esteem down to negative 13. Plus, I’m not physically attractive right now, like, when did I ever become one?)

Anyway, after looking at our finances and realizing that our actual savings fell short over our projected savings, I’m starting to feel guilty. I know I should be thinking about the baby and we need to prepare for his coming, but I’ve been controlling my “luho” ever since I discovered that I am pregnant. But I really wanted something for myself this Christmas. I don’t want to feel bad and it’s not totally a crime to put yourself first once in a while. So I hope Santa doesn’t put me on the naughty list right now. I need to work really, really hard now :(